patience, Krisa. patience.

“in the end, you’d be sorry you treated her the way you did”

“sometimes physical pain is the only way to escape the ones we feel inside”

or maybe it’s because whenever I feel… like this… food just isn’t an option

• When I love you, I’m gonna look past your imperfections. No matter how much of a jerk you are; no matter how many times you make me cry or push me away or treat me like scum, if I love you, I love you and that’s that. Even when you say the meanest things or become the biggest jerk in the world; even when you turn into the person you said you’d never be up to the point wherein, at times, i don’t even know you anymore… i still won’t leave you
• If you try to break up with me, I won’t let you. I don’t let go if I know that there’s still a tiny bit of hope to save everything. I’m not one of those girls who are just so passive and let things go so easily. If I know I can save one thing, then I’ll do everything it takes to save it. 
• If I love you, I’d do everything as to not say anything that would hurt your feelings. No matter how much I wanna say something mean and tactless, I’m gonna hold it in even if it takes all my patience to do so, simply because I know how much words can hurt and I don’t want you going through that kind of pain.
• if i love you, i’m always willing to forgive you. and forgive you quickly at that. Because for me, YOU’RE more important that my EGO. 
• if i love you, i won’t let the past ruin what we have now. things have changed, there’s no use revisiting what has passed; it’ll only stir up negative thoughts and emotions that are well off buried.
• I’ve probably cried so much more the past months than i have in years, and they’re mostly because of you. i keep telling myself na ayoko na. but it obviously means gusto ko pa. not the pain ofcourse. anything but that.

—to be continued—

Because I KNOW that if I do, I’m just gonna regret it in the end…. I’m still holding on to the fact that things would still get better, I know it will. You made me the happiest. You know exactly what to say at exactly the right time. Simple things you do or words you say always make my day. I know what I want, I know what I need, and I know what i can’t live without. some don’t understand why i’m still holding on. but i just shrug it off. they don’t know about the things we talked about, the promises, the things you’ve made me feel, the things i feel, they don’t know what it feels like to love you or to care about someone like you, they don’t see the things that i see in you, they don’t know you like i do, ‘nuff said.

Yes, I get hurt a lot by the things that happen between us, in the past few months I’ve probably cried more than I have in years, i get mad and pissed and annoyed, and there are times when I just wanna give it all up. But every time that happens, I remember the reasons why I’ve been holding on for so long. Yeah, I’m probably the type of person who gives up easily on things once they get too hard for me to handle. But this is the only exception. You push me away, say things that hurt like hell, but the past few months, I’ve come to realize and understand that you only do those things when you’re mad and I’ve come to accept that because I know that you would’ve have reacted that way if I hadn’t done something that might’ve hurt you or made you mad… I no longer run after you in school or drag you to me because I know that it only gets you pissed even more and I don’t like that:( , sucks that I only realized that now, huh? There’s only ONE thing that would ever make me give up, and I’m pretty sure you know what that one thing is… 

Also, the past few weeks, I just realized how much I actually trust you… I trust you enough to know that you won’t ever cheat on me, I trust you enough to still hold on to the fact and believe that you still do love and care about me. I know you do. dkfjhasdkfhsdjkfhksd I’m sorry if I ever doubted that in the past. you’re right, I do know that you love me kjsdhfkahfjk

I didn’t like you because of your good looks and whatnot. It’s because i know na you have a good heart regardless of what you do; you’re sweet, super caring and loving and understanding. i’ve seen that part of you that prolly no one else has, and I know that it’s still there. It’s not gone, I know it’s not….

(Source: krisaaaaa)

Ordinary People - John Legend

“Girl im in love with you
This ain’t the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we’ll make this thing work”

Another trip down memory lane…

haha, i remember that time when you told me you’ve been listening to this song on repeat that night after we fought and made up, then asked me to listen to it coz the first parts were relevant. :) now every time this song comes up, wheee memories~ another sweet gesture i miss. /sigh

-xxxx-

(Source: krisaaaaa)

Last school year’s prolly one of the best years I’ve had in Victory. Yeah, I hated our adviser, but hey she didn’t destroy my fun. :)) So muuuuuuch unexpected things happened; things i never thought i’d do/feel/say/experience; but most of all, things that’ve altered my life greatly. It was the year I was happy the most. Built up relationships. Butterflies. Late night conversations leading to bigger decisions. Time spent in a bookstore. Hugs. :*. Sweet talks or just simply talking everyday. Parties. Fights that were sooner resolved. Better communication. Doing everything to make the other happy. Cute messages. Saved chats. Less tears. So much laughter. So much time spent together. Stalking. More activities. Better grades. JOY.

I just couldn’t help but hate this year every time I remember freshie days. Okay, well not really hate but I just wish somehow that this SY could’ve been as great as the previous one, know what i mean? This year, I barely talk to the 2 people I was always with last year. They were the ones who made last SY so awesome, and now… I just wish we could be the same again, even for the last 4 months… I just miss it. I miss it so much haha

class picture! I honestly like our class last year better. Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against our class this year. But last year was just, tighter. In a way, i felt more close to people then. haha. I actually missed all of them when we had our Christmas break last SY, unlike now~

Yana, Kleid, me and Jed. Miss you guys so much okay afhjsdkfjhasdkj /sigh

my pretty hair during the Christmas party

the only exception would probably the Christmas party. it was just toooo boring + my shoes killed me.

this is prolly the only photo I have during the Christmas Carnival, i was late eh. who’s cuter? :>

Badminton before PAPRISA season. aww look it’s Bronson

Creative dress-up week!

forgot what happened on that day. i just remember being kilig haha =)) 

Me, Ange, Kei and Hikari.

friendshiiiiipnesss! that moment when Cley and I linked arms and everyone else joined in. good times

that day when we did our “Bucket List”. laugh trip. We’d be dead even before we reach #10 in our list

why did we have food again?

our art group: Shuttlecock frosties with Kleid! a huge Christmas gift + hand prints all over it.

Devotions group. It was so much fun because Sam, Yana, Ji and I would always count how many times Ms Cecile says ‘sabi niya’ ”tas sabi niya’ during the whole time. At one point, it reached over a hundred, not exaggerating okay. At the end we’d ask her “Ms, sino yung nagsabi?” =)) it was a lot better than the one we have now, srsly.

it’s the little things… who knew those things would actually mean the most? haha NAKAKA MISS >:D< (stalker pictures from Meg)

With Jed and Kleid, i was scoring one of the games in Rock Olympics. miss you naaaaaa. ganito again this year, please? :’(

:”) hanging out in the library after Rock Olympics. One of the best days! I’m pretty sure YOU remember why…

hey there, i miss you

Best friends ko… remember when the 3 of us were always together? yeahh i hella miss that so darn much. 

Well, that’s about it. I guess you’d notice that there’s prolly only really one thing that i REAAAAAALLLY miss from last year, and would wish to have that forever. I would always remember that year. It was the time i was happiest, I’m not even kidding. Looking back, I just realized how much things have… i don’t even know how to explain it… but let’s just say that, if I could have one wish, I would wish that things could go back to how they were that year, even for the next couple of months. That’s all I really want :)

Love and miss you :*

-xxxx-

(Source: krisaaaaa)

Stranger - Secondhand Serenade